Am I Kanye West yet?

Lately I've been a little distant. I've been enjoying the two weeks off I have before I start school yet again. And lately, I've been feeling pretty crappy about NOT graduating yet, or not being close to graduating like so many of my friends. And boy have I been reminded by so many that I'm not as close as them to graduating. People have been feeling the need to give me school advice that I didn't want or need. 

So I've been feeling a little lost, and quite frankly a little hurt. What am I supposed to do? What do I want to do? What do I want to become? 

But why are we in such a rush to become? There's nothing natural about four years of grueling school. And to be honest, a full load of school wasn't helping me any. It was destroying me. It brought stress and anxiety and a whole lot of tears to the point where I wasn't enjoying my life like I should be. I sat in my room for days typing essays, drinking energy drinks. The only time I would see the sun was when I was walking between the buildings at campus. Is that really any way to live? 

I decided it wasn't. I took a semester off. I lowered my class load. And quite frankly I've never been happier. I'm learning so much about myself. I've gained a green thumb, I've mastered the art of DIY. I even actually appreciated my math class this semester. I'm enjoying challenging things. So yes, I won't be graduating within the four years it should take. But I don't regret it, and I won't let anyone belittle me or tell me what I should and should not be doing. 

So this blog post is for the people who have told me that I need to take more classes, that I need to stop taking breaks, or reminding me every five minutes that they only have so many more classes to take: I don't care, thank you very much. 

Also, this post isn't meant to be mean to the people who are graduating. You should be so freaking proud. You worked HARD. Good for you.